Changes

I wasn't able to post before now because of a busy weekend, but induction has been changed to Tuesday Nov 17 @ 5 am. This is due to my doctor having an emergency or something like that and not going to be there on Monday, and for some reason, if you schedule an induction, your primary doctor has to do it, so we're stuck with changing it to Tuesday. I wasn't real happy with this but really had no choice. Plus I honestly thought she would come on her own before then any way. I was wrong.
It is now Monday morning, about 4 am, and I'm still pregnant. No contractions to speak of, a couple here and there. My feet are still swollen. My back still hurts, and as I said, it's 4 am and I'm awake! Let me just say, I'm not complaining.
Today is the last day I will ever be pregnant in my life. I've been very lucky to have had a great pregnancy. I've enjoyed being pregnant. Even the back ache and swollen feet and hands, I know what the end result will be and I'm smiling. Being pregnant is an experience that no one can describe, and if they tried, you wouldn't believe it. Seeing her for the first time during the ultrasound was awesome, feeling her kick for the first time was amazing, and I absolutely can not wait to hold her.
She will be my child. Chuck's child. Our child. It's so scary and amazing and nerveracking and beautiful--all at the same time. This baby will never know how wonderful she is, she will never know how many times we prayed for her, how much we tried for her, how much we went through to have her in our lives. Not because she won't read this one day and find out or be told, but because she won't understand how absolutely precious her mom and dad thinks she is. Before we've even met her. Not to mention the grandparents, great grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins that are here for her too. And even the ones that are no longer on earth with us, because I know each of them are watching for her too. No, she's not a miracle baby, she's OUR miracle baby.
And we'll get to meet her tomorrow.